motherhood or patriarchy

Mar, 2026

like every other woman on my family tree

l was raised by patriarchy

all these women were powerful, abundant, compassionate and loving

and they were using the language of self opression proffesionally

they were doing on behalf of patriarchy 

sometimes even better than the system itself

because they were the ones knowing how to ride themselves properly

l want to do things differently

differently from my mother

different from what's been done to me

l carry her love and compassion like side effects of patriarchy

trying to unlearn my childhood and those twisted patterns

engraved on my body

unlearning that love is a form of suffering for validation 

and compassion is a form of oppression

that's not how l want to present womanhood my daughter

l want to be a diverse source for her

a mother

a sister

a healer

a trailblazer

a fellow dreamer

a dreamer for every other new woman to walk the earth 

more free in their skin

l want to be a vehicle for her to move forward

with confidence and faith

not as a mission or a burden to carry

but as a driving force to take care of every other woman gently

l try to do things differently

differently from my grandmother

l carry her abundance and devotion 

trying not to confuse these things with holy depletion

that's not what l want to teach my daughter

l want her to put herself before all those things asking for attention

l want her to be an infinite source for herself to be loved unconditionally by herself

l want to be an example by loving myself unconditionally

and loving her unconditionally

even when she doesn't turn out to be the best version of herself

l want her to know by every cell in her body that

containing the power of owning what she holds

knowing that she already has all she needs

to feel enough

to feel brave enough to be vulnerable enough

to inspire and transform herself and her bubble eventually

seeing herself as the driving force in her body

l cannot stop looking for ways to do things differently

differently from my grand grand mother

differently from my grand grand grand mother

from my grand grand grand grand mother and so on...