COUNTING, September 2025
I feel like a brand newperson
I am open
I am brave
I have things that I like to do
I have choices
My liberationn came from my roots
My hips, my joints, my blood, my muscles
My liberation came from my heart, my nerves
Is it me getting liberated from all of those above
Or with the help of those above
Or despite those above
I will never know why but I know how
I was there watching the full process
In tears some days
In fears some days
Trusting was the hardest
Not only myself but also to others
I always was proud of knowing what I don’t want
That was my compass to protect myself from all
It worked.Now is the "I know what I want” time
Because I know, for the first time in my life
I realised that it could have only been by aging for me
And, it did.
There is this calmness and this feeling of “content”.
I am ok with myself
That takes a lot of effort
No, wait, I am correcting that
That “took” a lot of effort
For years, for months, for days and for hours of self doubt.
Now came this almost fake like feeling of comfort in my own skin.
Makes me make peace with all the pain and suffering
All those implosions
All those sacrifices
Not all of the compromises; but some.
Task : Be ( Check.Done)
Once I decided to just be, it took me 7 years to come here
Not bad at all
New Task : Grow
Day 1 and counting…